This post is not for me. It's for you.

Listen, I gotta say I don’t wanna put this post up. It’s not for me. It’s for you.

Here’s why I’m saying that.

I love comedy. I always have and I always will. But I didn’t want to be a comedian. What I really wanted was free therapy. And in my weird brain I thought maybe if I get up on stage and talk to strangers about how confused I was all the time I’ll figure out this constant identity crisis I’m always having.

This is not what happened.

For about a year I went up on stage a couple times a month. And all I did was tell the truth. I talked about my family and how people viewed me in the world. And people laughed. Some of them felt uncomfortable, and some of them stared at me with very straight faces.

But the thing that surprised me the most was the people that felt the same way I did.

I think I learned something valuable about communication and insight in that time. Tell the fucking truth and people will connect with you. When I told my jokes I just thought no one is going to understand this but I’m just gonna say it and maybe it will amuse people.

But people did understand. Maybe they didn’t have the identical experience that I had, because really how many people are like my parents? Maybe like 5? I don’t know I haven’t met everyone in the world.

That’s why I’m saying this post is for you.

I hope that it makes you feel something cool. That maybe you’re a little less alone. And it would be nice if you chuckled a little. But just don’t tell me when you laughed okay? Or okay fine you can. But I will be awkward about it.